Fairfield Ruthless `
I put the things that made me upset out of the court. I put em aside. I forced myself to give my best. I focused like mad. I lifted up my shots. I put in 150 %. I was hoping we could win Cedar by two goals. God, just two. Why wasn't our prayers answered? You know we needed to win and You knew this meant alot to us. What exactly is Your plan? I played my hardest. I fell but I said press on and I did but what difference did it make.. We lost. As I have said to some of you all, would it be any different if I played like how I played yesterday on St Marg's match? I would say hell yes. But I already know its too late but right now, its too early for us to get out of the competition. Too early for us to stop kicking ass. Its too hard for me to accept it that we are not going to Nationals and only stopping at what? Second round zonals. This is wayyyyy too fast. Way. Too. Fast. Way too fast.
Its unbelievable and I should stop lying to myself and act happy cos goddamnit I am not. I am fucking upset, really. I am just so disappointed in myself and whatever that has happened. Maple I really need to scream right now.
I put the things that made me upset out of the court. I put em aside. I forced myself to give my best. I focused like mad. I lifted up my shots. I put in 150 %. I was hoping we could win Cedar by two goals. God, just two. Why wasn't our prayers answered? You know we needed to win and You knew this meant alot to us. What exactly is Your plan? I played my hardest. I fell but I said press on and I did but what difference did it make.. We lost. As I have said to some of you all, would it be any different if I played like how I played yesterday on St Marg's match? I would say hell yes. But I already know its too late but right now, its too early for us to get out of the competition. Too early for us to stop kicking ass. Its too hard for me to accept it that we are not going to Nationals and only stopping at what? Second round zonals. This is wayyyyy too fast. Way. Too. Fast. Way too fast.
Its unbelievable and I should stop lying to myself and act happy cos goddamnit I am not. I am fucking upset, really. I am just so disappointed in myself and whatever that has happened. Maple I really need to scream right now.
You: It's not about saying a thousand I love yous in a day or nagging me to go back home early for 100000000000000000000000x. It's about whether you mean what you say or you're just saying it for the sake of saying which sucks. Cos its insincere yo.
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