Sha Elektra

Bio easy. Chem, not! Screw this bio/chem prac. Next in line to tackle, prelims. And swimming was a total failure. Gross, I lasted for a ten-minute swim only. No more 30min/rest/30min/rest/30min. I shall attempt again tmr. At least manage half of that. Like maybe clock in an hour tmr or smt. I need to de-stress that is why I swim. Ok go, Huda I'll post a challenge for the both of us tmr. 1 hour swim, amcm? Tangan patah pon patah lah. Nak kurus punye pasal, gasak lah haha!

Anyhoo Akmal just asked if I wna go out tomorrow. He said its some Mod Day and he wna bring me to the museum cos he knows I've an interest in Vespas and there's some exhibition thing down there (plus its at the musuem, I like museums hello) so he thought it'd be swell to bring me there but I kindly turned down his tempting offer cos I wna swim then I've to complete a huge bit for art and I just... Okay nvm. Sorry! Prolly next time uh okay? Oh, eh! Why you never bring Fitt go?! What happened this time round? Eh double peace lah, don't fight already please. I tell you dno how many times already right wahlao. Anyth just compromise D:

And I've yet to go for Warhol's. Apparently Infinity's been reaaaaaaaaaally busy with school blah blah blah and its quite saddening for me and I don't even know why. I can't even answer myself. Its like the interest is there but to pursue, its quite an impossibility. You and I both know exactly the reason why. I mean there are certain things that we can change in this life. And for this instance, what I can't is fate. I can't change that one fact right now and I'm sad. I'm disapponted that Mister God is on the opposing side at this junture. But why! ): Okay shut up, Sha. I know everything He does happens for a damn good reason lah.

Might be meeting Ketam and Hafiz (Vic's eyecandy haha) later at Lakepoint. They're like in town now on a bloody Wednesday. I bet they went chick-hunting and stuffing their damn phonebook with girls' numbers. Hahaha alrighty, see you boys later hopefully. I need some fresh air now. Like really badly. And as much as I'm fed up with some people, my common sense and fingers are reluctant to type. Obviously I'm not so stupid so til then, au revoir! Gdnight cute people :D

Ps: To whoever it might concern, I think you're way uglier because you speak words like that. How ironic that you'd still be bothered even after a period of time. Enough already. It is really upsetting to know that you missed my point in doing what I've done. Not that I regret but it is afterall getting out of hand, don't you think so? I felt like crap, well maybe congratulations to you if you're jumping for joy while reading this right now. I felt like shit pissy after I read all your fucked up thoughts. All I asked for was you to change your mindset. Not rub salt to the freaking wound. How come I always get misunderstood? Why? Sometimes I just wished that you'd just wake up your idea. Seriously. I barely even know you but those words being hurled at me, my humble pride is being violated. I don't like that. At all. I think it is rude and insensitive. Just imagine, you don't even know someone but yet all his/her friends starts talking about you like wow hot gossip. Firsly, I won't provoke unless you do first. Secondly, I don't know why you must pursue all this junk. Wonder if you ever tried walking a mile in my shoes and feel what it feels like being me. I don't have it easy alright. So don't go thinking like oh, "Sha's this this this this and that and this yada yada yada." No, you're dead wrong. I literally grew up without a dad and my mom doesn't stay with me. The generation gap between my grandparents and me is far. My family's dysfunctional enough. I don't need any redundant worries like you in times like these. My studies is not exactly doing very well. I'm dead beat from thinking about my future. Whether I will get my bum in Lasalle or not. You see my point is, my life isn't that great to start with. I don't know why you want to make a big hooha out of it. I don't see how it will benefit you or any of your friends. You spew about life and whatnots but at the end of the day do you mean it or was all of that just for the sake of saying. I know the prospects of this is not going to subside any sooner but nonetheless I secretly hope you'd just let it go because you should already know by now that whatever breaks me, makes me stronger. I just don't get it/understand lah okay. And once again may I say, I don't act like some power nerd kick ass english pro shit. I just talk/speak/type like this believe it or not (Her World magazines helped alot by the way). Gah! Stop it. Please. You're making me feel like kicking your damn face with soccer boots on man. Oh complete with the studs and all cos I'm very angry right now. Very very angry and sad :'( The feeling is worse than the feeling of losing my phone.

Mister God, I've never really spoken to You in a nice way before but I know You hear and comprehend me just the way I am. I know You hear my needs loud and crystal clear. I've got no one else to turn to except You right now. Honestly, I don't feel good about the whole damn thing. Do grant me the strength that I need and the wisdom to overcome all of this. The patience to the words that pains me. Give me the peace and serenity that I've been yearning for, in abundance. Take fucking good care of me. Shield me. Protect me. For I am far from being just a vulnerable child right now. I am beyond wrecked, Mister God D:
With love, Sha.