Sha Elektra

Sometimes I wish I was brave. I wish I was stronger. I wish I could feel no pain. I wish I was young. I wish I was shy. I wish I was honest. I wish I was you not I.
I wish I was smart. I wish I made cures for how people are. I wish I had power. I wish I could lead. I wish I could change the world for you and me.

I really miss the kids back in Chiang Mai. I saw ly's photos and its really heartwarming seeing the familiar faces growing up. I might have forgotten their names (all thanks to my lousy memory which is definitely failing on me) but my heart is always with them. Each and everyone of them. Initially when I went there about a year back or so, I thought it was a waste of time mainly because the i/c was Thio and in all honesty I was only excited about the shopping part but little did I know that this particular trip could widen my perspective so much. While I was there, everyday I wake up only wanting to spend time with the kids. I don't care if I missed my meals so long I get to see them /: And now, I miss them even more. I miss them a whole lot in fact hence the sudden urge to post an entry about them.
Time for a few photos! I realised I've typed too much... Look at that chunk!




I forgot her name but that's the same girl with Kennedy. She's really clingy around him. I guess Josiah was next. Aw man, just look how much she has grown in a year!
And omg Xuening! She has an uncanny resemblance to you lah hahaha.

Sorry I just don't like the freaking nerds in my school, I have an issue with them so that explains the smileys. And again, I forgot his name too but I was kinda scared of him at first. He made me those bracelets and tied them on my wrist discreetly during one of the chapel services and unfortunately was too loose and had those ugly excess bits. He whipped up a penknife in front me and cut it lah! I mean! A freaking five year old having a bloody penknife in his pocket all the while?!
Okay scary but nonetheless sweet. Its the thought that counts :]



Oh oh! Eh Yisheng! Your "Holiday". Haha we couldn't catch his name and it was sad that we had a difficult time to communicate with them cos they neither spoke nor understand english and we kiasu, impatient and over-friendly Singaporeans didn't understand any thai too except for the basic neng song sam and "torai?" - means how much in thai cos we were always buying things haha but the point is (sorry I digressed), we call this kid Holiday.




Last but not least, the kid that I'd always lookout for while I was there. I really hate myself sometimes, how could I ever forget his name? For someone so small like him and so much younger than me, looked at life on the brighter side way much more than I do. For someone so young, so brave, so determined. I shunned at myself when I think about it. The happiness he derives from the little things he does like sitting on the parapet overlooking the paddy fields can already put a smile on that sweet little face of his. A nine year old taught me to appreciate the simple things in life. A nine year old. That alone proved my belief that age is just a stupid number.

Okay I'm getting emotional right now so I better distract myself. Gna get ready to meet up with the girls (although my throat is killing me) at Cafe Iguana, baby!

Xx