Sha Elektra

I build myself up
And fly around in circles
Waiting as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

Today I took bus to school and was early because I was happy. And when I'm happy I'm not lazy. School was alright except Ow's cos he was so anal about anything and everything today. I even got a booking like whoaaa okay. San didn't make it again for his tp test. He was devastated, so was I. How is that even possible? I also don't know.

Did art after school but it wasn't in the least productive. I slept on my board, really tired cos I didn't get any sleep last night. Went home and it was pouring like maddd, managed to take a short nap in the bus. Shiok shiok. Went to meet San in the evening cos he was feeling under the weather cos of the tp test but he was all smiles when we met. (Good?) Had no idea what to watch and gamed on The Dark Knight. Lesson learnt: Do not be lazy to bring a jacket/cardigan to a movie on a rainy day.

And tall people should never watch a 3 hour movie at jurong point on an impromptu either. You're just indirectly asking to break your own back.
And also, the failure of the evening was that I forgot to bring my camera out this time, sighhhhh.

I don't know if I should be happy. Or not. I scare/confuse myself/over-analyse too much sometimes until I just totally give up. I always almost lose myself to myself, too many a times in fact. I hate it. But I felt a change in the messages. It was just... different. I think I'm worrying too much anyway.
And the connection is a fucking biaaaaaaatch right now, goodnight world.

Ps: Maybe I should have an eating disorder then maybe I'll feel better about myself? Okay fuck stop it. Not again, Sha.