WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT FROM ME OTHER THAN LOVE?

"I cry not because I am weak, I shout and scream not because I feel inferior, I questioned not because I doubt, I remained silent not because I admit defeat. It is all because that I still care, Because you meant everything to me, I questioned because I want to understand you, I stood silent because I did not want to be misunderstood by you."

I am not a very happy person now. I used to be. I am trying, but all you do is to condemn me. Everything I do to make it up to you just keeps falling short. I wished you knew how fanatic I was while I was away, I kept thinking/talking about you. I wished I could buy you the whole of jb.... just for your angel eyes to look my way again. I am sorry. I am never going to be good enough for you. And when I say that, I know the exact words that will slip out of your guilt-free lips. Your words always have halos hovering over them. I am sorry, I am always the anchor to your happiness but in my most honest and vulnerable words... I cannot do much if you keep thinking the worst out of me (or my family and friends). I hope these three words still means something to you - I am trying.