MY BRAIN IS A TRAIN WRECK

For the past week I have been wearing hairbands, irrit fringe selalu rogol dahi aku. I have been trying to accept the fact that death is inevitable. I have been eating too much good food. I have been hanging out with Lydia. I love you. I have been drawing. I have been drinking. I have been smoking. I have been sad and crying myself to sleep for 3 nights in a row because of family, the passing of a good friend and people who should be the ones dying. But I had happy moments after that cos S makes me feel better all the time. I have been busy working. Today.... Not really, cos my boss just left for Bali and I finally found some time to squeeze this entry in.

S got a new job, I don't know if I should be happy or sad cos his new job = less time together. But absence makes the heart grow fonder no? I hope so. Mmmm I haven't been partying too. Zirca on Wednesday night just isn't the same without Marcus. And I need a haircut. Hamizan cakap rambut aku da macam "Kakak sedare aku" yg selalu keluar malam lepak kat pokok pisang. Mcm sial punye anak! I is very angry. K what else to rant about since I'm on this... O ya tmr is 1st May. Marks my 21st month with S. We're going to the airport and I have nothing new to wear. AND MY NAILS LOOK LIKE SHIT. Sigh, the woes of being a girl.

Andddd before I forget, just to inform, I lost my SIM card so anything just drop me a line or two at facebook. I will get a new number probably at the end of the week. Contemplation: iPhone or BB Bold (+iTouch)? Another one worries me. I really worry a lot these days but who gives a fuck. And nobody leaves nice comments on my blog anymore? Or spam my formspring? Am I getting boring? I miss my friends. No one misses me.