SHE IS SO BEAUTIFUL

People who knows me all too well knows that I wouldn't step out of the house without a jacket/cardigan on. I hate my arms. I really loathe them to the point where I won't bare them when I am out and I'd throw a cardigan on even when the sun is blazing outside. It's one of my many insecurities in life. The visible stretch marks, the many folds bulging out at the side of my armpits and upper back, love handles, ugly elbows... etc. One cardigan can hide many flaws but truly, on the inside, I just feel like trashing all my cardigans in the bin. My friends keep telling me that I am pretty and that I look fine. I don't know if those are just white lies cos I would wallow myself in disdain each time I look at mirror. I didn't think big (as in, fat) can be beautiful.

I have always taken a liking towards http://thesartorialist.blogspot.com/ and http://lookbook.nu/ but did you notice that the people in there are all skinny! And then today, with much delight, I came across two lovely fashion blogs for plus sized girls, http://themanfattanproject.tumblr.com/ and http://www.leblogdebigbeauty.com. The latter is in French. I don't understand French (Can anyone please help?) but I kept browsing through the pictures because I think the girl featured in it is beautiful. God must have had spent a little bit more time on her. I love the way she carries herself. How does she do it? I'm sure she's a nice person too. It emits as such in all her photos. She looks so wonderful. I don't wish to be like her. I just wish I had (at least) half of her self-esteem. You feel my plight?

I have the same exact embroidered tunic but never got around into wearing it. She worked it! What an inspiration.