so many people telling me one way, so many people telling me to stay
never had time to have my mind made up, caught in a motion that i don't want to stop
never had time to have my mind made up, caught in a motion that i don't want to stop
need something to numb this feeling of... void. of inadequacy. of confusion and of reoccurring heartaches that was not supposed to take place or was it? if only my heart was made up of a gazillion calluses. i have done whatever i could. sacrificed so many things, lost the many people that meant so much to me and became a whole new and improved sha. what more do you want? korek my hati and put it in a ziploc bag? i need something that is effortless yet strong enough to immobilize my train of thoughts. i wish it was amnesia.
no one told me that turning nineteen would suck this much. there are a lot more than that that is going on right now. i just did not know where to start and picked the one that is hurting the most (what's new right....). why are you treating me like this, november?
no one told me that turning nineteen would suck this much. there are a lot more than that that is going on right now. i just did not know where to start and picked the one that is hurting the most (what's new right....). why are you treating me like this, november?
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" Do you realize just how strong your heart is? It endures pain and it still beats. It feels loss and still beats. It also feels the emptiness others leave us with and still beats. Our hearts are our body's best defense to any pain it may receive and it still goes. Our heart speaks to us everyday and tells us to never give up and always believe that things will get better, no matter how much it hurt before."
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Your workplace is awesome man. Anyway CHEER UP. I GO FIND YOU AGAIN SOMEDAY OK
@anonymous. i dont want to lie to myself. i was hurt and i still feel really sore about it. you don't know what went on and of cos, it has always been easier said than done. right now, i need something. something to let me know that i can still feel. or i just need to numb myself.
@ly thanks! you better do. that day was quite fun la, we should have opened a bottle of wine. we must go uphill and explore. a lot of things to take pictures of
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