days with my father by phillip toledano (click on it.)
it touched my heart in so many different ways i cannot explain... it moved me and instantaneously i thought of my grandfather, my father and in all irony, san. what would it be like if we were to grow old together and that i left first? would he quietly sit on his couch and write notes about me so he would not forget? so many things i thought about. not to mention, mad pictures. i cannot deny that.
on another note, i guess san and i are starting to get better. i thought to myself long and hard as i sat at the corner of my bed, why are we like this again? and it all boils down to one thing, we both forgot that the most important things are not things. the most important "thing" is to always leave a space, no matter how small it is, for flaws. we were so caught up in our own useless mindset and what we want to fulfill only for our individual self that we forgot what we both, as a couple, truly wants in the future. dismissing all these from mind is a reckless thing to do. we really need to get on with our 2nd journal because all the pages are still fresh :-(
i have decided to delete the previous posts. i also chose not to publish a few crude comments that i have received from anonymous readers. for one, i admit it is partly my fault to publish such a delicate matter but i do have my reasons. after all, this is my personal space and if you don't like what you are reading, the weight of your decision was never mine to hold. tell me, are there any relationships out there, no matter how robust it is, that are spared from some bumps along the ride of lurvvve hmm?
to vic, i know you are not god and i am fine if you are no longer as free. with a job coming your way soon, i understand your need to re-schedule your time with everything. i'm sorry if i suffocated you. i meant well. hope you enjoy at work, seems like fun! ily. x
9 comments:
Dearest Sha,
The course of TRUE love never did run smooth..
May God, grant you the serenity to accept the things you cannot change, the courage to change the things you can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
Be Happy.San & Sha,
God bless you both.
*hugs* you know you can always talk to em :)
*me
yeah i know but i just don't want to trouble people. i think vic also got sick and tired of me telling and asking her abt san... gotta learn to suck it all up by myself. i know i am going to be ok. i just don't know how long it will take thats all. thanks az :/ (ni bukan sombong or what... sigh i hope you get what i mean)
independence is good. but if it's too much for you, talk to people about it. i'm sure friends don't get sick of hearing the same old things from each other....
You happy, I happy. Steady bo?
@az yeah but i think i got to back off a bit la. cos different people go through different things. different people have different perspectives. so i got to take note of that.
@vic steady
:) hugs
Dont worry so much sha, theres always ups and downs in a r/s. Good to know you have picked urself up ((: thats a winner in my eyes. da takmuh kisah pasal yg losers tu. 24 7 memekak je but actually macam faham!
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